Over the past couple of months I've managed to toss myself here and there, to different places where some of my friends live and most of these friends are lesbians that I've met in the past.
I usually just have a few friends that I keep close but I'm also open to getting to know other people better.
I like having lesbian friends but then I get so tired of hearing them wanting to be in a relationship when they just got out from one. Lesbians can really talk about it for days on end. I think I'm the only person I know who don't really care much about these things. But I do understand why people are like that. It's because most people are afraid to be alone. So afraid of being alone that they would cling to anyone so soon. But I think this is also one of the great reasons why relationships fail, because most of them are motivated by fear and have accumulated enough anxieties to sabotage their relationships. Although I am put off by this kind of weakness, as a friend I will always be there to comfort them, even if I have to cross the oceans.
I'm pretty much content and happy with myself and I would never lower my standards just because I would like to settle down with someone.
I'm planning to go back to Taiwan because it's so much fun there and I'd also like to see friends. Though I just got back from Singapore a month ago, visiting a friend who just got out of a relationship and wanted someone to talk to. It was a nice trip and I was able to catch up with friends while being able to do a lot of things.
I used to always stay at a friend's condo in Boni, we would just hang out in her place have roast chicken for dinner(we were both vegetarian) and just talk or watch a movie for the rest of the night. We would sleep in a single bed that is too small for the both of us. Her room was so small you can only take 4 steps of walking space while the rest is occupied by the bed, table, and a small chest of drawers for clothes. She was one of those writer friends whom I enjoy talking about life and other things that most people couldn't even dream of thinking about. She was a pothead so she was always stoned and because I'm not exactly a person who likes going out for the sake of going out, we always just stayed in and have a mellow evening.
Well, she lives in Swiss now and we only get to hangout in Skype. I am also staying at different places with other people now since I always have to stay in Manila for many reasons.
I guess I've always been that transient visitor who is only passing through...
